Apples, blueberries, mushrooms, almond milk, coffee, oats, yoghurt, dishwashing soap and.. What was that thing I realised I ran out of when I was cooking last night? Arghhh. I’m only going to remember when I cook again tonight.

**ck. He’s walking towards me. We’ve spoken atleast 3 times. What is his name? Think, girl, think. Arghhh. This is embarrassing.

One more to-do ticked off my list. Pheww. But wait, didn’t my manager ask me to do something in this morning’s call? Uhmm, what was it? Create a table of something? But what thing? Argh, why do you keep failing me brain?

As I lay crying into my pillow, listening to that song that reminds me of how your eyes sparkle when you smile, I bless my bad memory.
Cause soon enough I’ll forget that you wore a green t-shirt that first day we met and I wore a green dress that I can’t bear to wear again. And soon enough I’ll forget the way your smile would make me feel like my soul was on fire. And soon enough I’ll forget your voice that would make my heart literally skip beats. And I’ll forget how I’d get lost in your eyes if I looked into them for a second too long. And I’ll forget how I felt seen (just as I am) with you after being invisible for so long. And I’ll forget how I felt excited about the future for the first time in years.

Surely, all your thoughts and memories will fade into nothingness. Soon. Soon.

PS: I don’t feel like I have a lot of stories to share right now, so I’m picking out notes from my phone and using them as blog fodder.